Afraid For Love Before It Can Come True

Sometimes, I feel I'm the dumbest girl on earth by letting you go. I often tell myself that it is supposed to be me you're sharing your dreams with, if I wasn't afraid then. I thought you're too good to be true and won't last long. I tried to maintain the friendship we've had just to spare my heart from getting hurt and so as your heart. Ironic! because I was afraid for love even if it didn't come true yet. Each night, you never failed to put a smile on my face. With every little things you did and said, it made me long to know you more. I know, love started to knocked on my heart that time because I already heard some nonsense noise coming from it. When you said that you're falling for me, I thought, it would be better to say awkward words than lose you.  All my life, I thought I was a risk taker, but yeah, I wasn't a risk taker at all because I couldn't even risk my heart.

The time when I wished to have someone like you, and when fate granted it, I wasn't ready at all. Then, somebody took the risk to catch you and I was left with nothing but a confused heart. But things happen for a reason, as I always say. I didn't deny that I felt a "little ouch" when I see you walked away from me. That was the time when I admire my heart again because it was able to skipped the pain and moved to another chapter of my life without getting broke.

Our little and short "love story" if you can call it that way- may not be one of those fairy tales with "... and they lived happily ever after" ending but there is one thing I should be thankful with- I made one princess the happiest girl on earth by having you- just tell her, she owe me a lot and if ever fate allow us to meet, she needs to treat me a lunch, or I'll win you back!. :)

I may not be the perfect girl for you, but just keep in mind that somehow, you've taught me something which made me realize that love will always be worth the risk :) Tnx, superman's friend! :D